Valley Affairs Series

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Welcome!!!!!



THE VALLEY AFFAIRS SERIES

(Inspired by Actual Events)

*No. The characters aren't real. I'm just having fun with that, man--who my characters would favor if they were actual people. Don't be a silly goose. Think of them as actors and actresses. It's that simple.


Valley Affair Series and Trailer Copyright © 2008 by Cali Marie Castillo

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Posting Tip



I'm one who prefers to post my entries in order. However, this is a rather difficult task when it comes to blogger.com. So, unless any of you out there have any information as to how I can alter that...I will no longer attempt to organize my posts in chronological order. It's just too much of a hassle.

So, I just want you to know that every post I make from this day forward is not in the order I would like for them to be. And I sure as hell am not going to waste my time changing posting options in order to keep it that way.

If I find a way around this, I promise to change it...because I'm one who believes the past should lead the present...if you can understand that.

Up until recently, I have continued the same blog on MySpace, which is entitled,Caliversy, but I've experienced far too many problems with MySpace and will no longer continue to blog there. Sorry for those of you who are advocates for the site, but I must admit I don't care for the social network at all and I truly believe it's going to fall apart one day. Nothing against the people who founded it...but there are people in the world much smarter than them...and people like that have a predilection to hurt people (including their computers) for no apparent reason. So, I'm just not going to waste my time with it anymore. Those I care about and love know how to get in touch with me. I know how to get in touch with them. And that's all that's important to me. If you ask me, MySpace is truly overrated. And I'm very much aware of the fact that the site carries viruses that will literally destroy your computer. Not a chance I'm willing to take just to talk to a bunch of strangers I don't really know.

Anyhow, I hope you enjoy my blog here at blogger.com and I look forward to hearing from you. Warning: I'm an intense person, speak of very intense things, and there is no one on Earth who can intimidate me into not saying what I want to say. I will forever speak my mind, and I truly believe it will be the death of me one day.

But who fears death, right?


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Finding Your Niche

Sorry, it's taken me so long to get back to blogging or share things with you that are going on with me in the publishing industry. My agent got through my first three chapters(we decided a few chapters at a time) and she told me she could tell I've done a lot of work...that she couldn't be prouder of me. And all us writers know that encouragement from veterans in the publishing industry only makes us want to be better writers. So, what's the first thing we do? Get back to our keyboards, which is exactly what I did.

Sorry to say, my agent is sick...but will recover, though. She just needs to take a little time off. She represents a lot of authors and I'm hoping some of you can realize how difficult that can be.

Anyhow, please pray for her. I know I am. And no. It's not because she's going to assist my book into being one of the best books ever read (LOL). It's because I've grown to care for her...love her (in a familiar way). So, don't even go there. She's just the most wonderful agent I've met. She'll fight for you 'til the end and she actually cares about developing the writing skills of new-timers.

I have to admit that without her presence, I've been in a bit of a funk. I've been drinking about a bottle of wine everyday and take pills that I know I shouldn't take with them. But I've been doing that for years--not drinking an entire bottle of wine, but drinking with the pills I'm taking.

I have the symptom. You know...that every writer gets after working with a book for such a long period of time? No. Not writer's block. The loss of objectivity is what's killing me. That's why it's been hard, not hearing from my agent who's taking personal time off. I don't trust the writer's I meet online, because if I did, the first thing I would ask myself is, "Why aren't they published?" "And why do they want to see me make it before they do.

Yes. Yes. I know there are people with good hearts out there. I know there are professors who teach English and Literature in college. I know there are writers out there who are just as good as the ones who are currently out there, but just haven't been in the right place at the right time. And I know there are writers who do have the heart to care enough about seeing someone they know make it in the industry. But, in my eyes, there are very few.

Until next time...many hugs and much love.


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Friday, July 18, 2008

Bored Out of My Mind

Honestly, I really don't have much to write about today. As I've said before, my agent and I have decided to take it slowly with this delicate and, hopefully, final edit of my first novel:




There are no words to describe what it makes you feel like when your agent or editor tells you that they feel something is finally right and that it works for the entire story. Because, I tell you...I had my doubts. With all the competition there is out there, it's not very easy to please these people. Yet, she told me I accomplished what I set out to do and that she couldn't be prouder of me.

Of course, I feel great about this. However, anyone who knows me will be quite cognizant of the fact that I'm not a person who operates slowly. In fact, I almost feel it's impossible at times. And though I know this is the right thing to do as far as my book is concerned, it is literally driving me crazy.

I don't care what sort of writer you are. But even if whatever you've written has come close to perfect, there will still be a little edit here or there...something the agent or editor sees that you can't since you've basically lost all objectivity when it comes to the story.

Does that upset me? No. I long for it. It's the waiting to hear back that drives me crazy, because writing means everything to me and I just want to get back to work. Sure...I still work on other novels, but an author can't establish themselves as an author until that first book is published, entertains, brings about emotion, gives them something they feel they can relate to, and so on and so forth.

That's why I'm so concerned with getting this done.

But I'm also one who knows that good things come to those who exercise patience. I'm also dealing with a veteran in the publishing industry. She knows about timing being right, and I fully trust her in that aspect.

So, in the meantime, I've been playing several games over the internet...particularly games that consist of finding hidden objects. As you'll see, I've added a few Mystery Case File sites to my favorite sites list.

I swear these games are addictive. And if you go on with the free trial like I've made possible for you to do by visiting this site, forgive me. For you will find yourself a junkie. LOL.

Anyhow, I'm going to watch a movie, do more editing, and (of course) play more of my online, detective games.

Until next time, many hugs and much love.


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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Tobacco Industry At Fault?



Those of you who tend to watch a lot of movies via DVD
like I do, may be familiar with the types of commercials
I've been exposed to regarding the tobacco industries in
the United States.

One of my favorites is when there's a massive group of
people standing in front of one of the companies and they
all of a sudden fall dead. Then there's a guy who holds up
a sign that says at least 1200 people die from the use of
cigarettes everyday. Then he has the nerve to ask (via his
sign) whether or not the tobacco industry can take a break.

As much as I do feel sorry for the people who die of lung
cancer or other forms of illness due to the abuse of
nicotine and/or cigarettes, I find this commercial funny
as hell.

If you go out and you have unprotected sex with someone
who has a venereal disease, are you going to blame the CDC?

I don't think so.

Because it was your choice. And instead of these people
trying to blame the tobacco industry, they need to start
blaming themselves.

No one put a gun up to their head and told them to start
smoking. No doubt that I'm very much aware of peer
pressure and that there are some children who are
convinced to smoke in order to 'be cool'. But, as I said
before...it was their decision, in the end. If they died
because of it...whatever. Perhaps they learned the most
valuable lesson there is about trying to be cool...that
you could die as a result of it.

I'm sure some of you are asking yourself, how can this
woman say something so cruel...regarding children who have
died because of this 'industry'.

Well, get it in your dog-on heads that the 'industry'
didn't force any adults or any children to smoke
cigarettes. It was a choice that was made and if it had
fateful consequences, it just did. Too bad. So sad.

The reason why I've created this post? Because I want
people to stop trying to blame everyone else and take
responsibility for their own actions.

If smokers are aware that over 1200 people are dying a day
because of the use of cigarettes, then you would think
they would have the sense to do whatever was in their
power to quit. But they don't. And I know this for a fact
because I have people in my family that smoke. And if they
die, I would, of course, be sad. But I would also see it
as their choice. Just as I saw it as my father's
choice...who was told if he took another drink, his liver
would give out. And that's precisely what he did. No need
to mention he's no longer here with us today. And what
hurts me because of that? My father chose the bottle over
me.

So, putting it quite frankly, I don't blame the tobacco
industry. I would blame those who continue to do what
they're doing and knowing, for a fact, that they are
endangering their lives.

Get it straight. Because that's the only way you're going
to get it from me.


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Thursday, July 10, 2008

Primetime Racism



I realize I came off rather harsh when it came to my post, "Racial Humiliation", but there truly is another reason I'm so angry with what I consider to be the "bad apples" of the Black community.

There's nothing that can change my mind. Even though I'm very much aware there's still racism in the world, I'm also aware of the fact that there are some people who've made it worse for others...who've caused us to be stereotyped the way that we are.

However, I've come to realize something else, too. There are new sitcoms developed nearly everyday. I mean, it's hard to keep up with them all. Yet, I'm starting to notice a trend. They're becoming more and more deplorable. Take Weeds for example. It's about a suburban mother who is running her own drug operation.

Now, I wonder how people would view this show if she were an African-American or Latina woman living in the ghetto and doing the same thing...just so she can put food on the table for her children.

I find it difficult to believe that people would view it in the same manner and they wouldn't feel as sympathetic for the character they see as 'lower-class'. Believe it or not, people root for this character...who couldn't be a poorer excuse for a mother. And it's one of the top-rated shows in the nation. What is our world coming to?

Another good example of this is the show Secret Diary of a Call Girl. It's, of course, about a Caucasian woman who considers herself to be a call girl, but truly is nothing but a prostitute. I can almost guarantee that's what she would be called if she were a minority.

Now, I'm a big fan of Lifetime, but I once wrote them and told them they needed to focus more on stories that explored the lives of African-American and Latino women. But you know why they don't?

When a Caucasian girl gets pregnant (Fifteen and Pregnant) or contracts HIV (Girl, Positive), they develop an entire story around it...because that just doesn't happen to them, right? However, it's expected to happen in the case of a minority. So, what would make the story special? That's the message I'm getting.

I've also compared many stories involving such children and adults as Jonbenet Ramsey (a kidnapping and murder victim who they still can't shut up about), Jaclyn Dowaliby (another kidnapped child), Adam Walsh (kidnapped and murdered), Amber Hagerman (kidnapped and murdered), Megan Kanka (kidnapped and murdered), Ryan White (contracted HIV through a blood transfusion), Joseph DiPaolo (contracted HIV from a blood transfusion), Alison Gertz (contracted HIV during her first sexual experience), and the list goes on.

Let's not forget the many laws that were created just because something tragic happened to a Caucasian person: Debbie Smith (a rape victim), Tracey Thurman (a domestic abuse victim), etc.

Yet, there are many minorities who've experienced the very same things. Do they usually make movies and blockbuster films about them? No. And I believe that's because we still live in a world where Caucasian people are held in higher regard.

I don't blame anyone who is Caucasian for this. I'm simply stating an observation I've made. And, in a way, I now understand why some minorities behave the way they do...because they don't feel as if people give a damn anyway.

In no way am I prejudiced against any group of people, but I'm angry because of the way things still remain.

One would believe we would've evolved by now. And I just don't ever see that happening.


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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Mandatory Testing

I saw a movie entitled, Yesterday, and I can't tell you how disturbing I found it to be. It was about an African woman who was completely faithful to her husband, but contracted HIV from him...which is often the case in Africa. Those women aren't anymore promiscuous than the women here in the United States. Their husbands are bringing home loaded guns, so to speak. And I think it's the saddest thing in the world. Not only for Africans, but for every country in this nation. One of the most difficult things for me to understand is that AIDS is the number one killer of African-American women aged 18-24...women who haven't even really had a chance to live life.

And, of course, everyone has their stereotypes when it comes to people diagnosed with HIV/AIDS. They're either gay, promiscuous, IV drug users, etc. Therefore, there's a certain lack of sympathy that I believe should exist with anyone who has it...no matter what kind of lifestyle they've led. Who are we to judge...and say that people are deserving of such a horrible death, just because they were humans and made the same mistakes a lot of people in the world make?

I won't even lie to you. I've made some very grave mistakes when it comes to sex. However, I've been blessed to have never contracted a sexually transmitted disease or HIV. And I know there are many other people, especially the ones who attempt to make others believe they're saints, who've made the same mistakes. And they, like me, were lucky.

It's been plaguing my mind...how we as a nation can put an end to this dreadful disease. They say education is the number one way to stop the disease, but if you ask me, that's a bunch of B.S. People, in the end, are going to do what they want to do...then think about the consequences later...especially those of my particular generation. And by then, they will have spread the disease to God only knows how many people.

My solution? To make testing for HIV mandatory. That's the only way this disease will be wiped out. For those who know they have it, unless crazy, won't go around spreading it...especially if they're aware the government is cognizant of their status. And even if they are crazy and choose to act with such a devoured heart, they will suffer the penalty for it, which I believe should be death.

I can't believe how many people would rather not know their status. Some believe they'll die faster if they know, which is just plain ignorant. But I know I would rather know my status and deal with it...if positive...rather than know that I've also led to the death of several others I decided to be intimate with.

And for those of you who are thinking that marriage is the solution, you're wrong. Check the statistics and see how many spouses have brought this disease home to their family.

Would mandatory HIV testing be against the civil rights of others? I don't really think so. And even if it was, the only people who would have a problem with it is people who know they may be positive or people who just don't care whether or not they are so that there's less guilt involved when they come to discover they have exposed others to the virus.

I truly believe this is one of the plagues God predicted in the book of Revelation. And I believe it is capable of killing 1/3 of the universe. Yet, there is a way to stop it. And with the way infections are rapidly increasing everyday...it's apparent that the government's current form of prevention is ineffective. It's time to take it to the next level, so that there's less death and the prevention of so many children being orphaned due to parents who have died of the disease.

I do believe people have a right to their medical privacy. However, when a communicable disease is discovered by a health official, it must be reported to the CDC. So, if one is negative...what's the problem? If one is positive, wouldn't it be better to know? Or do we live in a nation full of people who want to bring as many people down with them as they can?

There's absolutely no reason not to be tested. And it kind of makes you wonder. What kind of a person wouldn't want to be?

Yes. It can lead to more suicides. I understand that there are people who would see that as the best option rather than live with the disease. But suicide is their choice, in the end. People with HIV can still live a full life, until God calls for them...just as He decides to call for anyone else.

And I won't sit up here and tell you that HIV/AIDS isn't a death sentence. I believe it is. But some people are blessed to live with it longer than others. Of course, most people in the world aren't as rich as Magic Johnson and just can't afford the medication that's apparently keeping him symptom free and alive after so many years. But there is still hope. And we, as a nation, need to have more compassion and love for our fellow man...see it as our responsibility to get tested. I mean, it's not as if the CDC is going to create a website on the internet, showing who's positive...as the government does for sex offenders. Now that would be against one's civil rights...unless that person is known to be acting with a 'devoured heart', which means spreading the disease intentionally.

So, my final word to you today is to get tested if you haven't been. Save the lives of others, including yourself. Because there is medication that extends life, and I wouldn't like to think people are in such denial...that they know the chance of them being positive is there...but they're still out there conducting themselves as if they're not.

Be safe. Look out for yourself. And look out for your fellow man. That's what makes you human, after all.

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Racial Humiliation



I don't know how many of you know this, but I am of Dominican and African-American heritage. Yes, there's some British in there, but I know that's not something others would be able to tell my looking at me. So, I keep that little secret to myself. However, don't be surprised if I know the meaning of the words; minger, dodgy, loo, arsehole, ,etc.

That's not what I'm here to write about today, though. I'm writing about something I've found to be very disturbing and, as I've said before, many people might have a problem with it. But do I care? Honestly, I don't.

For centuries, the African-American race has been looked down upon as trash by other races, and I have to say that I see no reason as to why that shouldn't be. Since I've moved to another area (for a learning experience, if anything), I've come to see that these people are stereotyped for a reason. I listen to them play their loud music past two o'clock in the morning, showing no respect for their neighbors whatsoever. They have a general disrespect for others who aren't affiliated with their race just because they're angry their ancestors were made to be slaves. But what I have to say to that…is whether or not they've ever been slaves themselves?

They feel they are justified in the criminal activities they partake in, because they're just taking what's been 'owed' to them for quite some time. They don't know how to be civilized and see violence as the only way of solving a problem. They destroy their own environment at every cost. And it is because of this I believe the 'ghetto' exists. A place can be of the highest class, but you mix a certain group of people within it, and it will become nothing other than trash.

For some reason, being rebellious is seen as an entitlement. And I'm here to say that the Black community just needs to get over it. Yes. Our ancestors were slaves and didn't have the privileges we have today, but what sense does it make to continue making life harder for us as a group?

No doubt. We had our culture taken away from us. The particular music several of us prefer to listen to and the 'gansta' lifestyle isn't considered a culture. I don't know how many of you have seen the movie "Havoc", but I would recommend it just so you're aware of how other races imitate minorities merely by behaving like idiots. What's so sad about it...they're imitating us appropriately.

Now, don't get me wrong. I know there are some very decent people of the African-American race...good citizens who work hard for a living and raise families. But, sadly, there are a lot of ignorant fools out there who do nothing but spit on our race. And what makes it so bad, it's the very race they're apart of.

I agree that our ancestry was robbed and as much as that may hurt, we need to be smart enough to create a more positive culture for ourselves.

Our first instinct is to blame the so-called 'white man', but the truth of the matter is…you're doing this to yourselves. You're destroying one another. You're destroying where you live. You're choosing to have a life without peace…all because you feel there's something you have to prove. And this couldn't make the 'white man' happier. We're like monkeys to them, monkeys that are slowly destroying themselves. And, in the end, the joke will be on us.

You're idiots. And for that reason, I refuse to claim myself as part of the African-American race. I'm actually humiliated to know that some of the same blood runs through me. And believe me when I say, I'm no uncle Tom. I just have sense, which apparently several of you don't.

I, today, am Dominican and Dominican only. Because the counterpart of my blood is too much of an embarrassment to accept.

But do you really believe our ancestors would appreciate us destroying the very gifts that are given to us? Would they appreciate our lack of unity as a whole—baby mamas and baby daddies here and there.

They wouldn't. And I'm sure they're turning over in their graves for sacrificing their lives for a group of people who only make us look worse as a society.


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Monday, July 07, 2008

Gay Christians? Are You Kidding Me?



I, first, would like you all to ask yourselves something. "Would God create something that's an abomination to himself?" If you're a person with common sense, I believe your answer to that would be 'no'.

Well, I don't know how well-informed you are, but same-sex marriage has been approved in the state of California, where I reside. There's also this steady rise of a group of people who consider themselves to be gay Christians. You may or may not have heard of a so-called Christian, singing duo by the names of Jason and DeMarco, who also happen to be a couple. They're contributing a lot to this cause, by sharing their music and the particular message they want to send out about being gay and Christian to the world, especially to our youth. And I honestly couldn't be more disgusted.

They recently had a televised documentary, "We're All Angels", and, within it, this woman considered homosexuality a gift from God...just like blue eyes, blond hair, etc.

ARE YOU FRIGGIN' KIDDING ME?!!!!!

Before I go any further into this post, I would like you to know that I do believe people can be gay and still believe in God. But one must keep in mind that to be a Christian, they must do their best to follow in the footsteps of Christ. Though it's impossible to be just like him, we should strive to be everyday. That's where the clause 'what would Jesus do?" comes from. And I highly doubt Jesus slept with his disciples.

I know there is no man without sin. It's in our nature to sin. No doubt about it. However, it's up to us whether we decide to commit that sin or not.

For example, we as humans are naturally filled with lust. Some may lust for the opposite sex and some may lust for the same. What causes that difference? I don't know. I'm not a scientist. Yet, I'm going to provide you with an example of something that demonstrates how wrong the message these gay Christians are trying to spread really is.

If you're familiar with the Bible, you know that fornication (sex outside of marriage) is a sin. And I won't lie. I've been guilty of it several times. Yet, seeing myself as a Christian--as hard as that may be to believe by some (LOL)--I know it's not right. And I would never preach to the youth of our nation, or to anyone else for that matter about it being right.

I notice a lot of homsexuals state that they've been that way for as long as they can remember...that it's a part of who they are. And that's the biggest lie they can convince themselves.

Do you know why we have lust--lust that's supposed to be for the opposite sex? It's so that we will have the urge to marry and reproduce. I mean, think about it. If we had no feelings for the opposite sex whatsoever...no attraction, there wouldn't be very many people on the planet. So, lust is a very natural thing to feel. It's how one acts on that lust that matters. Some consider lust itself to be a sin, but it states very clearly in the Bible that it's better to marry than to be filled with lust. So, God is very much aware that it's there. And I, therefore, consider it to be natural.

I could choose to fornicate, but I wouldn't be doing what God would like to see me do. And the same goes for homosexuals. That urge may be there, but it doesn't mean you have to act on it. And you sure as hell shouldn't be spreading the message that it's okay to be that way. That's spreading Satan's message, not God's. And there will come a day that these people will greatly suffer, for it is an abomination against God. An abomination being, 'something God hates'.

Don't get me wrong. He doesn't hate homosexuals, just as he doesn't hate fornicators. What he has a problem with is the act itself.

So, why is it that we can be born with lust, but it's not considered a part of who we are? However, if one considers themself to be a homosexual, it is a part of who they are. If you ask me, that's what they need to convince themselves in order to escape the spiritual penalty they're going to be faced with.

No one is born homosexual. For years, psychologists have reported that it's very natural for an individual to be attracted to both sexes. It's very natural for individuals to experiment with the same sex. Some do and some don't. But to say one is born to do the one thing God truly hates is ignorant. It says just as plain as day in Leviticus that a man shouldn't lay with a man as he would a woman. But, of course, a homosexual's response to this is that the Bible has been tampered with for many years. And you know what I see that as? Selective belief. And God doesn't go for that. You can't pick the parts of the Bible you agree with and say that other parts are untrue. You may as well have no faith in the Bible altogether.

Then...some of them have the nerve to ask how we know it's wrong? It doesn't take a genius to realize that even the physical part of the relationship doesn't correspond well. In order for a gay or lesbian to be together, they have to commit what's known as sodomy, which used to be against the law in every state. The sex they have is very unnatural. And is it a wonder why no children can be produced in such a relationship? Come on...who do they think they're fooling?

You'll also notice that people who have something to be ashamed of or who harbor guilt make an attempt to throw it in the faces of others every chance they get. I've had friends who have been homosexual and they've either tried to 'turn' me, or are constantly trying to make an argument as to why what they're doing isn't wrong.

Do we have heterosexual pride parades? No. We don't have to. Because that's the way it should be. We don't have to flaunt our sexuality in public, because it's naturally accepted. That's the way God intended for it to be.

Yet, these people constantly talk about their rights, and this, and that. Shut up already. Accept the fact that what you're doing isn't of God and it's not natural.

I, normally, don't have a problem with gay people. Yet, it becomes a problem when they start spreading lies about homosexuality being okay...especially to our youth.

Just as I have to do my best to refrain from fornication, since I'm not married. They have to do the same--refrain from sexual activity with the same sex. If that means celibacy, then that's what it means. Yet, I know how hard of a task that is. So, we're all bound to slip up some time. Whether heterosexual or homosexual.

Thing is...homosexuals are just as wrong in the act they're committing, and it's just not right to say they're not wrong. In a way, it's a form of corruption and it truly sickens me.

I don't hate homosexuals. I love them as my fellow brothers and sisters, as I should. But I hate what they do. Just as God does.

Of course they're free to love someone of the same sex. I love plenty of people that are the same sex as me. Yet, if I were to have sex with that person...just as if I was to have sex with a man...it would be wrong. And nothing can change that.

Some of you might be wondering why I'm ranting and raving about this when I'm a sinner myself. However, I would first like to ask, "Who is without sin?" Secondly, I want to make it very clear that I wouldn't be preaching something to be right when I know it's not.

How would it look if I went around the world preaching that murder was okay...that fornication was okay? Not like a very Christian person. Not like someone who has any type of concern for God's true message. Starting to catch my drift?

I also want everyone who reads this post to know that God considers no sin greater than another. Of course, there are different penalties for the crimes we commit here on Earth, but those are penalties created by man.

God loves homosexuals just as much as he loves anyone else on Earth. So, I'm not trying to encourage others to hate them. I just want them to know how wrong they are in trying to teach others that this type of behavior is okay.

I have no doubt it may be a part of who they are, but that doesn't give them any more privilege to commit homsexual acts than that of someone born with schizophrenia who, one day, decides to push a young woman in front of a train (actual story). Either way it goes, it's murder...no matter what the mind frame of the perpetrator is. And God will judge that person...no need for us to.

I'm actually ashamed I live in a country whose pledge of allegiance includes the phrase, 'one nation under God', yet they're now promoting this same-sex marriage bologna. I don't care what anyone has to say about it. God never intended for two men or two women to get married. He said, "Be fruitful and multiply." And, in case you haven't noticed, that's a bit impossible for gays and lesbians. It may be impossible for a heterosexual couple as well. But we all know that's limited to unfortunate physical problems and the inability to conceive.

I believe people have the right to do whatever they want behind closed doors. It's not up to me to judge, but God, in the end, will. My problem is that far too many homosexuals throw their bedrooms in your face...with this gay pride, same-sex marriage due to having civil rights, rainbows, etc.

If you're going to be gay, shut up and be gay. But stop throwing it in the faces of others and stop trying to corrupt the minds of our youth. You are sinning...no matter how much you try to sugarcoat it. And you will suffer the consequences of your actions, whether you have a marriage license or not.

Get over it.


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Sunday, July 06, 2008

The Comeback



Wow! It's been ages since I last posted a blog, but I figure it's time. Believe it or not, I had to move again due to a very trifling neighbor. I mean, the woman was terrible. CPS just came and took her children. So, I believe that's enough said.

Anyhow, that put me off the map again--as far as the internet is concerned. I had to take care of what was most important first. And, in the end, a blog is just an expression of one's self...in hopes that fellow bloggers and readers are able to relate to the situation. Not that I don't want that. But I must admit it's not one of my top priorities.

How's my writing been? I have to admit I'm getting a little sick of the same ol' story, but that's what's expected to happen during the editing process. My agent and I have decided to take it a few chapters at a time during the final editing process and we're just getting started with that. So, wish me luck...yet again.

To be honest, there's nothing much going on in my life right now...other than me being a movie fanatic. Sometimes, I have to pinch myself and drag myself back to the computer.

I wouldn't say I've lost my passion for writing, but I will say I'm losing passion for the story I've been slaving over for months now. It's just like any other relationship or commitment. You can't expect the passion to remain the same. The intensity of a new beginning will eventually be lost, and for those who don't believe that--no matter what type of relationship they're in or commitment they've made--I feel sorry for them.

There's been a lot going on in the world, and I (of course) have my opinions regarding them: same-sex marriage being approved in California, occult racism in various industries, tenant law in California, divorce and custody, the tobacco industry, issues with the war in Iraq, adultery and AIDS, etc.

I won't be posting anything about it in this blog, but rather in those that proceed it. I'm starting to find I have something to say nearly everyday about the things that are going on in our nation and what better place to express my thoughts and opinions, right?

I'll be working on my first post today, and it's bound to make a certain group of people angry, but I could give a damn about what they think. No, I haven't changed in that aspect.

To all my fellow bloggers and supporters, thank you for taking out the time to hear what I have to say. Even if you didn't, I would still blog. Yet, it makes it a lot funner if I'm aware that others out there take out the time in their schedule to listen to what I have to say.

For now, I have to go and update my website, Cali Castillo, the blog I keep on MySpace.com, Caliversy, and my online diary, Mind of a Bipolar.

I look forward to posting more and getting back on track.

Until next time, many hugs and much love.


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Friday, July 04, 2008

What's Up?



Well, I know I've been keeping a very low profile online, and I'm sorry about it. Thing is, I had some very big changes to make in my life--one of which included a big move. As it is with many moves, one finds themselves torn away from the world of internet for quite a bit of time. At least until they have time to get things straight. And things are just now coming together again for me. So, here I am.

Other than being involved with a crazy stalker and moving to a new home, things have been pretty much the same. I had to put writing on the back burner for a minute, because I had a lot of things going on in my personal life that needed to be taken care of.

So, I'm just getting back into the groove of things.

Luckily, I have the most understanding agent in the world, Marie Brown. The woman never ceases to express her faith in me and is always assuring me she's in this process for the long haul. Of course, that makes me happy. But, at the same time, it puts a little fear in my heart. For, I don't want to disappoint her. You know?

All I can do is my best and that's what I intend to do--by taking it a day at a time. That's all one can do when it comes to this industry.

I've never been one to have good patience, but I really have no choice if publishing is the industry I would like to succeed in. I've learned that, along with many other vital things. And I have a great teacher.

Yes. I still believe I'm right on the brink of making all of my dreams come true in the publishing industry. As long as I don't give up, I know I'm going to make it as a great author one day. Hopefully, that's in the near future. :)

As of now, I'm going back to work--full throttle. I have a lot of cutting to do and, luckily, I have a caring agent that's willing to coach me through it all.

If anything else occurs in my life--personally or professionally, I'll be sure to keep you updated. I'm going to try my best to post something everyday.

As always, I hope things are going well for all you fellow writers and bloggers. I look forward to hearing from some of you again.

Until next time...many hugs and much love.


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Thursday, July 03, 2008

Eyes of Gray: Chapter One



The following is an excerpt from my first book of the Valley Affairs Series. In no way is it to be used or reproduced in any manner without written permission from the author.



August 20, 2005 (Saturday)

"Whew!" I was nearly finished planning additional inventory I intended to acquire for our Fall 2005 season, adding vintage, watches, sunglasses, lingerie, and other accessories in order to expand purchasing options within the boutique. As I had been doing for the most part of the day, I took another look at the clock to see that it was going on four-ten. And since I’d told my sister, Rosa, that I’d be picking her up at her apartment at four-thirty, I realized I’d better get going. So, I closed my shop planner and started straightening up my desk. But after hearing the front door slam a little louder than usual, I froze and tuned my ears into what was going on.

"If you don’t hand me all the money in those registers, I’m going to blow your fucking heads off!" I heard a recognizable, masculine voice threaten. I could also hear some of my employees screaming, crying, and begging for their lives.

I let out a lengthy sigh and rolled my eyes. "Not again." I grabbed my purse as I rose from my chair. And just as I heard the cash registers opening, I rushed to the front of the boutique, heading in the direction of the man holding what I knew to be a water gun. He was an indigent, yet harmless, mental case named Tyrone, and he took the liberty of trying to rob my boutique about every two months. It was like clockwork.

As I approached him, he turned to me and scratched through his disheveled, black hair with the water gun, as a child would’ve done when caught doing something naughty by his or her mother.

My employees, two new cashiers I’d hired a few weeks back, remained scared out of their wits and clueless as to what was really taking place. So, the closer I came to Tyrone in distance the more they dipped down, underneath the registers in order to seek shelter from possible gunfire. Poor things. They probably would’ve gone ahead and given Tyrone the money, which would’ve been a minor setback, one in which I would’ve had to come out of pocket for. As I’d told myself before, I needed to incorporate Tyrone’s robbery attempts in their job descriptions so they would know what to do if I or anyone who knew better wasn’t there. But I’d never gotten around to it. Thus, I was mentally pulling my own hair out as I witnessed how much terror they were in. Deciding I didn’t want the charade to go on any longer than it had to, I smiled at Tyrone, removed my wallet from my purse, then fished out a one-hundred dollar bill.

"Hi, Li," Tyrone nervously said. "How’s it goin’?"

"It was going fine until you decided to come in and rob us again."

His eyes went soft and he shook his head in shame. "I’m sorry. It’s just that I’m so hungry. And I need somewhere to stay for a little while. God knows I could use a shower."

I slightly fanned my hand before my face as I got a whiff of his body odor. "And don’t I know it, too," I murmured as I shook my head. "But I’ve helped you with this before, Tyrone. So, why do you continue to go about getting what you want this way? I mean, you’re scaring my girls here, sweetie. And that’s not very fair to them."

He lowered his head as I put my arm around his shoulder. I extended the bill before his face. "I want you to take this. Get yourself something to eat and find a motel to stay in tonight. That way you can get all showered up and clean, have a good night’s rest on a full tummy, and be ready to face a new day." I held up a finger as a schoolteacher did when making a point. "Which is what?"

"A new day to make the changes I need to make in my life." He nodded, showing he remembered at least a portion of our last conversation. "But what am I supposed to do when the money runs out?"

"Well, certainly not this." I shrugged as my thoughts took me to a place most unexpected. And, for some reason, I felt more compelled to speak rather than ponder. "But I think I may have a solution for you." I squinted as I came to terms with what I was about to say. "How would you like to work for me, washing the mirrors and windows Monday through Friday?"

"Are you serious?"

"Unfortunately, I am." I chuckled. "But I want you to be able to make your own money, and take better care of yourself. Because what you’re doing now is something that could possibly get you killed. And that’s not something I want to see." I held up another finger. "But no coming to work drunk or high. No more attempts to rob us. And no stealing. Or I’m going to have to fire you, not only placing a call to your case worker, but to the police as well."

"I understand." He took in a deep breath as tears filled his eyes. "And I’m sorry. Please, don’t be mad at me, Li. And don’t think I don’t appreciate everything you’ve done for me, because I really do. I’m just havin’ a tough time. That’s all."

"Just promise me you won’t do this again. And I want you to mean it this time."

"I promise." He stood upright as if someone had just tightened his spine. "And if you give me a job here, I promise I won’t let you down."

"I hope not," I rushed to say as reservations continued to pester me. "Now, give me the water gun, go handle your business, and come see me around three in the afternoon on Monday."

"Yes, ma’am." He smiled, handed me the water gun, then saluted like an officer in the military.

I watched as he skipped out of the store and all I could manage to do was shake my head with a smirk. I couldn’t lie. The man had grown on me, like a vine. And it actually worried me more to go without seeing him than it did when he was pointing a water gun in my face and taking my money. So, I had to have been just as crazy as he was. Go figure.

Feeling an urgent need for business to continue on as usual, I clapped my hands in chop-chop fashion. "All right, everybody. I’m sorry for the scare, but the show is, now, over. And we must get back to work." I marched back into my office, printed out my to-do list for Monday, then shut down my computer.

About ten minutes later, as I was rearranging a few more things on my desk, Alicia Jiminez, one of my boutique managers, stepped in my doorway. "I heard Tyrone was here again." She sat in the chair across from mine. "Don’t you take that as some sort of sign that we should finally get security up in here?"

"Tyrone is harmless."

"The man is crazy. And there’s no telling when he’ll bring a real gun in here."

"Well, you don’t have to worry about that anymore."

"And why is that?"

"Because I gave him a job."

"You what?!" She shook her head. "A man who basically robs you by taking one hundred bucks from you after a foiled robbery is given a job here?! Are you kidding me?!" She laughed, then dropped her jaw in an exaggerated fashion. "You sure have a unique way of doing things, Li."

"Gosh, but don’t I know it." I grinned.

"Un-friggin-believable."

"And just so you know…I give him the money out of the kindness of my heart. Not out of fear. Because even if I were to say no to him, I highly doubt he would do anything to harm anyone else."

"On that note, I say speak for yourself. And, on a second note, I think you need to consider the possibility of another psycho paying us a visit. One with more serious intent than Tyrone. Which is why I still think you should—"

"I’m working on it, Alicia. I’ve already been in contact with Guardco, and I’m working on a contract for round-the-clock security services with firearm certified guards. Just like we talked about."

"Well, speaking on other terms," she glimpsed at her watch, "aren’t you going to be late?"

I took a peek at the clock again, saw that it was four-forty, and hacked a sigh. "Oh, no," I said as I sprung up from my chair.

It was the opening of my boyfriend Mike’s second club and I was beyond excited for him, to the point in which it felt like my own accomplishment. I was nervous, too. Just the thought of him achieving yet another one of his lifelong goals sent a jolt of lightening throughout my entire body, jerking every single one of my nerves, which is why I found it nearly impossible to sit down the entire day. I usually didn’t even go in on Saturdays, but I had to do something with my time, or else I would’ve gone stir crazy.

"I guess I’d better get a move on."

"My suggestion as well. I know you wouldn’t be able to forgive yourself if you were late."

"No, I wouldn’t." I pushed the chair in with my hip. "But what I’m not looking forward to is picking up my sisters. They’re at each other’s throats again."

"When are they not at each other’s throats?"

"You’ve got a point there."

"You guys are a riot. Never a boring minute when the three of you are together."

"Hey." I pointed a finger at her. "You mean the two of them. Because in no way am I as dramatic as they are."

"No. Of course not," she said with a touch of sarcasm.

I giggled. "So, are you staying until twelve or what?"

Unlike other boutiques and shops in Merced whose operating hours were typically nine to five, I decided to run a boutique that remained open for sixteen hours—eight to twelve. Boutiques that targeted the same demographics, who operated on eight hours, and didn’t remain open as long, were losing out on a lot of profit, and I didn’t want to be one of them.

It seemed like perfect reasoning since a large proportion of the clients we were targeting got off of work at five, and we were in the business of providing R&R—equipped with rooms containing a tanning bed, jacuzzi, sauna, a masseuse for massages, a cosmetologist for facials, waxes, and body scrubs, as well as a nail technician for manicures and pedicures. An open bar with a licensed bartender was also available to paying customers. The accessible spa treatment serving as a local resort to those in need of it most.

"Yeah, I’m staying. I don’t want to leave Marie and Tosha on their own just yet." She sighed. "And just so you’re aware of it….Carmen called in again."

Carmen, one of my supervising cashiers, and almost needless to say, my cousin, seemed to think she had it like that when it came to her job. But I, who never cared much for her or her attitude, was ready to prove she didn’t. The quickest sum I could give of her was the fact that she was a whore and, worst of all, she was a whore who was after my man. Such a harsh thing to say about one’s own blood, I knew. But it was the pure truth. And the only reason I decided to give her the job was because her mother made the plea to mine, in hopes of teaching her daughter some form of responsibility as well as helping with the multi-thousand dollar hardship she’d managed to accumulate on her parents’ credit card within a period of a year. Since it, in the end, was my mother who was requesting for me to give her the job, I felt I wasn’t in a position to say no. But I was no longer in a position to continue saying yes either. "I’m starting to think I’m going to have to replace her."

"You’d be doing me a favor if you do."

"Even though I know I’m not going to hear the end of it, you can consider it done. Find a replacement for her. You make the choice this time." I straightened out the lapels of my treasured Dolce and Gabbana pantsuit, then added firing Carmen to my to-do list. "If she can’t be here when she needs to be, then she doesn’t deserve a job here. Just as it would be for anyone else."

"Right you are."

"Well, I’d better scoot." I walked over to the doorway and turned off the light to my office. Alicia stepped out of the way as I closed the door. "You guys try not to have too much fun without me." I chuckled as I waved goodbye to Marie and Tosha with my signature, beauty-queen wave.

"Don’t forget your interview with Lori on Monday!" Alicia shouted from behind.

"I won’t," I said as I was leaving out of the front door. I then rushed over to my Escalade, unlocked it with my remote, chucked my planner in the passenger seat, and got in. As I started the car, all I could do was smile when I thought about where both Mike and I were at in our lives. The points we were at in our careers. No doubt that we were truly blessed.

But I couldn’t say things were always looking on the up and up for me. Instead of heading off to college straight out of high school, I decided to establish a literary agency on a whim because of my love for reading. I was able to find one client whose work I took a great interest in, and shopped his work around until I was bleeding from the eyes. Yet, no one would bite. But simple luck had found its way into my life and my first client’s manuscript did for me what John Grisham’s The Firm did for Jay Garon.

While I was in Los Angeles, attending one of the infamous parties of my brother, Rico, who was also a successful Hollywood music producer, he introduced me to Breck Jones, an NBC executive producer of four prosperous television shows, with another five of them under his belt that had been canceled after several years of airtime. I mean, the man had made NBC billions of dollars. So, when he agreed to look at the manuscript, I couldn’t even explain my excitement. I had tears in my eyes when he took it from my hands.

He decided to buy it once he read it, believing he could turn it into a thriving television series, which he did—Celebrity Players. He purchased it for ten million dollars, and I couldn’t have been happier for what he considered to be a favor since a little more work and rewriting on the manuscript was needed. It also had to be converted into multiple teleplays. So, I knew I was fortunate. And I would never forget Breck for the courtesy he’d extended to me.

Besides with Rosa, I’d never discussed what my favor to him was and hoped I never had to do so in the future. The way I saw it, all affluent career women had to sacrifice a little something in order to get ahead. Being younger and dumber then, I was quick to sacrifice my body.

But subsequent to that, there were no other manuscripts I found an interest in, which meant no other deals, and I found the field of agenting too stressful for what it was worth, especially at the tender age of eighteen. So, I decided to give managing another type of business a try—desperate to be my own boss.

I decided to invest the money I’d made and saved from my book sale into a high-end boutique and spa with sexy, young, hip, and edgy designs, including every type of treatment a woman could expect at a spa. I chose to call the boutique Sky’s, since I felt the sky would be the limit when it came to fashion and the pampering of a woman. Corny. But when it came to the creation of a business name, I had to admit I was without. Only thing of my concern was getting the job done, because there weren’t very many stores or boutiques that sold high-end clothing and accessories in Merced, and I wanted to make a difference in that aspect.

After getting Rico to make an investment, I was set. Business started off a little slow and there was some profit loss the first year. After all, I was pretty much in it alone and had to do the planning, budgeting, store layout and design, merchandising, hiring of specialists, sales, and marketing on my own. But no matter what, I was hell-bent on being successful. And I ended up being much more successful than I thought I ever would be. Because I was an Afro-Latina, I thought my success was going to be limited, but apparently God had other plans for me.

Just as my thoughts caused me to visualize the success of my boutiques and the use of my own name climbing to even greater heights, my cell phone rang. I knew it was Rosa, wondering where the hell I was. So, I decided not to answer and haul ass over to her apartment, because I wasn’t in the mood for her yapping. The way I saw it, there was no way I was going to let anyone or anything get my spirits down for the night, because it was far too special to be ruined.

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